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Chapter Ninety-Three: Thoughts about last night
Tillie
“We’re going for a run, kitten. I’d like for you to pack a bag for later.” Jason said as Aaron waved at me before turning away from
the three of us.
“I, um. I think I’d like to spend tonight at my place. Alone.” I said, worried that they wouldn’t let me. They had told me last night
that I could go home, but that they were going to go with me. I really needed time away from them to think about what had
happened.
“Tillie, I don’t-” Ryan started to say, but Jason cut him off. Lifting up his hand, he looked over at Ryan, shaking his head.
“Okay, just let us know when you’re ready to come home.” Jason said, looking back over at me.
I let out a breath I hadn’t realized I had been holding. A part of me was half worried that they were not going to let me go home
and try to kidnap me to take me back to their place. While that could possibly be fun for a consensual kinky game, I really just
needed time to process everything.
“Okay, but I still want to talk with you baby.” Ryan said, his shoulders sagging.
It was scary to think about being away from them and I didn’t know why I didn’t like that thought. Why it scared me.
“Tillie, go have fun. We’ll see you later.” Jason said, the corner of his lips turning up in a half-smile.
I nodded as the two of them turned towards the direc tion that Aaron had headed off in. I watched Ryan and Ja son until they
turned the corner before looking up at Aaron’ s apartment building.
The neighborhood was nicer than the one where I lived. A couple ran past me, pushing a jogging stroller. Their pace wasn’t very
fast, but the way they looked at each other spoke of the love that they shared.
This was the kind of neighborhood that people settled down in. That they had families in.
restored. Was this what Charity want ed?
To settle down with someone like Aaron in the city?
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She had never shown any interest in doing that before and I had never seen her sleep with a guy for more than a couple of
weeks before she moved on to the next one. But after seeing the marks on Aaron’s throat, I was beginning to question if I even
knew my best friend at all?
Resting my hand on the cool iron door handle, I pressed the lever with my thumb before pulling the door open and stepping
inside. The foyer of the building was cool and sunlight streamed through the windows. I made my way past the mailboxes and
over to the stairs.
I didn’t want to take any more stairs anytime soon, my thighs and calves ached. Really, my whole body ached, but I knew after
this I could head home and soak in the tub until | turned into a prune. Letting out a sigh, I kicked off my heels before bending
over and picking them up. Normally wouldn’t walk around some strange fancy apartment build ing barefoot, but I was exhausted
and the thought of stay ing in my heels wasn’t something that I wanted to do.
Slowly, I walked up the stairs. What was going to say to Charity?
So much had changed from the night before. I had thought that I was going to have a one-night stand with two incredibly hot
men. That had taken a turn that I wasn’t expecting with another man coming into the mix of things. And them telling me
afterwards that this wasn’t going to be
just a one-time thing.
That I was theirs.
I had let them do things to me that I have never thought that I would experience. I had done things that | had only dreamed
about. The pleasure that they gave me was addictive and I didn’t know if I would be able to stay away even if I wanted to.
I had learned that shifters were real and that I was now mated to three of them and that my best friend might also be one of
them.
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It was a lot to take in, they were a lot to take in.
Travis was all rough, primal sex appeal. Giving and tak ing from me as he growled dirty things in my ear. Promises of pleasure
and something so much more.
Things were still not resolved between him and I. But I was comforted with the fact that being mated to Ryan hadn’t changed the
way that he felt about me or the way that I felt about him.
I just wished that he and Ryan had let me be included in that experience. Just thinking about them together made my insides feel
all warm. I wanted to see them loving each
other. To share that passion with them.
Ryan...
I had never thought that I would meet someone like him. Someone that would make me feel like I was the most precious thing in
the world, yet he fucked me like he hated me and I loved every moment of it.
The way his hand felt on my bottom, how he ordered me to call him daddy. I loved it all. How much he took care of me and
looked after my needs. The way that he did the same thing for Travis and Ryan.
I was still upset with him for claiming Travis and I knew that it was a me issue. Not really a them issue. It had just made me feel
like I wasn’t enough for them, even though Jason had assured me that I was. That he had assured me that them choosing to
mate with each other was normal for shifters who shared a fated mate.
It didn’t help ease my worries that they wouldn’t want me. That they might think that I wasn’t enough for them.
Sure, Ryan had said that he want to talk to me later and yes, that did make me feel better. But I still couldn’t seem to get past my
own insecurities. I had never felt like I was enough for Jake and now I knew why.
We were never meant to be. Both of us had been using the other. Waiting for something else. He had been waiting for his mate. I
hadn’t known what I had been waiting for, but after being with Ryan, Travis, and Jason. I knew that what I had been waiting for
was them. I just hadn’t known it yet.